Rare Moments Of Clarity.

‎"When you get those rare moments of clarity, those flashes when the universe makes sense, you try desperately to hold on to them. They are the life boats for the darker times, when the vastness of it all, the incomprehensible nature of life is completely illusive."

I relate to this quote because every time I'm happy, all I want to do is hold on to that moment, but it always slips away.

Lightning Has Struck.

Yes, that's right. I went out and got myself a tattoo. I got a lightning bolt on the inside of my left arm above my wrist. It's small and prefect. I love it. I got it because I wanted a power symbol. As a whole I think I'm a pretty strong person, but a lot of times I forget how strong I can be. I got the tattoo to remind me that I will always have the strength to overcome anything.

Gatsby.

Today I had this urge to watch The Great Gatsby. I love the story because it's tragic and it just goes to show how much love can blind you. I love happy endings as much as the next person, but I feel like when you have an amazing love sometimes it's bound to get messy. Not everyone can live happy ever after, which is why I like Gone With The Wind, The Great Gatsby, and Casablanca. They may all end up apart, but they had an epic romance and are all beautifully tragic. I find that I can relate to Gatsby, in the way of being your own enemy. I end up being my own demise all the time, just as Gatsby was.

"He had come a long way to this blue lawn, and his dream must have seemed so close that he could hardly fail to grasp it." - F. Scott Fitzgerald (The Great Gatsby)

Don't You Wanna Stay.

This song pretty much explains how I feel right now.

It Cuts Like A Blade Newly Sharpened.

If I Die Young was my favorite song for a while. If you look back at an older post, you'll see I actually posted the music video. But ever since Ben, I can't even get through the first verse without starting to cry. I loved the song because I thought deep down that I could relate to it. I never ever imagined that anyone else I knew could relate to it. The song just keeps getting more popular and it's getting harder to avoid it. I've tried to fight back the tears, but I can't seem to get very far. Hopefully I'll be stronger soon, but I very much doubt it.

Finally I'm Getting Into This Session.

This session at school, were getting into studios and lighting. I don't have any real knowledge about lighting so I've been feeling a little behind. But I totally nailed my last assignment. I'm so excited about it because I feel like everything just clicked. Everything just made sense and I could see exactly how each move would change the lighting. I feel really excited about school again and I'm very happy about that.

Give In To Me.

So I saw Country Strong tonight. I was looking for more of an inspirational movie, which this didn't turn out to be. But it was still a great movie. Definitely go check it out. Here's a clip:

If You're A Bird......I'm A Bird.

I had to post this scene too......I love it.

I'll Be Seeing You.

The Notebook is every girls favorite love story. It was mine for a time as well. I didn't realize how close to my heart it was until recently. This movie will forever engrave what once was ours and will help me keep you close. I'll be seeing you.

Time To Breath.

Okay so, I am finally done with Accounting. Yes, that's right folks, I passed! Finally, that class took forever. And now is time for some family time and then some Vegas turning 21 time! These next few weeks are very much needed and I'm so excited to start the vacation. I'm going to try and turn my brain off for a few days and enjoy this time. So I'll see you in the new year!

There's A Feeling Coming Over Me.

There's a feeling coming over me, it's taking me over. My body feels restless and it needs to move. I have these thoughts screaming in my ear. I've been trying to ignore them, but they're just too loud. I can muffle the sound a million different ways, but in the end it's just too loud. I can't deny what I need to do. But if I give in to the want and the addiction, would I be able to stop tomorrow? Or would I get pulled in all over again? I don't want it all back....I just want the feeling for a little while....could I just go back for a few hours? I very much doubt that it would be possible. I doubt it because I may be strong, but no one is that strong.

If I Was From Paris...

Totally digging this song right now.

A Cancer Of Sorts.

There's a cancer of sorts that has crawled into my head. It seems to spread slowly, but it hits me out of nowhere. One minute I'm driving, then next thing I know, all I wanna do is cry. This week,I thought, might be better. But it wasn't. He showed me how to love life and every time I appreciate something, all I wanna do is text him, but I can't because his mom cancelled his phone service. I know this because I've been calling his voicemail. I know that sounds like a horrible thing to do, but I just wanted to talk to him, ya know? But now I don't even have a recording of him. Slowly everyones letting him go. How do they do that? How do you let someone go?

Let's Take A Trip Around The World Today.

Good song by Alexz Johnson. Check it: