Catch My Breath.

Just Feel Better.

The Best Part.

All I've Ever Needed.

Bat For A Heart.

Now That I've Found You.

I Look Up To You.

All I'm Asking.

It's Finally Time.

I think it's finally time to say it. I'm upset that it didn't work. I'm upset that you didn't even give me a real chance. I'm upset because if I cant make it with you, I don't think I can make it with anyone. I'm pretty sure I love you and I'm pretty sure this is how it feels when someone breaks your heart. I think about how things could be different and I think about what I could have done. I think about what it should be like and how you should have been on my side. I think about how much better my life would be if you were in it. Mostly I just feel this void all the time. It burns like a fire that wont go out and I'm afraid there will never be enough water to fully put it out.

My Favorite Day.

A Day Earlier.

I've been thinking about you a lot lately. There's this pain and I feel it all the time. I think about how if I had only called you a day earlier, maybe things would be different. Maybe you would have realized how much you were loved and maybe you wouldn't have felt so alone. I wish you could be here, but you aren't and everyday it haunts me. All I want is to make it right. I feel so responsible. But there's nothing I can do.

Childhood.

Childhood is not from birth to a certain age and at a certain age the child is grown, and puts away childish things. Childhood is the kingdom where nobody dies. Edna St. Vincent Millay

Loving Nick Simmons.

Seriously, I'm in love. He has such an awesome voice....totally want more.

Anxiety.

The Panic Attacks have come back. I'm not having full on can't breath, crying, rolled in a ball hard core ones yet, but I'm def having minor ones. I'm anxious all the time. I have to pep talk myself to leave my apartment. It's getting hard to deal with it when I have so much going on. I don't have time to deal with this stuff right now. I think it's going to keep getting worse. I'm having all of these thoughts and I'm trying to remember things that I just cant seem to. I'm having these nightmares, so I'm not sleeping very well and I end up staying up until like 2 in the morning. The loss of sleep is affecting me and how I interact with the world. The world is just so not interesting to me right now. I don't want to be involved with anything, yet I'm involved with so much right now that I can't stop. It's already starting to affect me in school and I'm worried how much I'm gunna be able to handle all at once. It's all just very confusing.