Irony.

Things have been going really well for me and people have been starting to notice. People have been more open to working with me and people have been more interested in my opinions. This has been feeling really good because I've been trying to make people realize I'm serious and I'm finally starting to make an impression. So why is it that right when things are going really well I get this feeling. Yes I had to deal with a guy that I haven't had such great relations with in the past, but can a simple conversation that didnt even go too bad cause all this? A feeling of sadness, loneliness, and mostly fear has taken over my mind and body. I'm tense and nervous. My mind keeps going over what could have happened and what might still happen. Why must my previous experiences still haunt me so? Will it never cease to bring me pain? My friend told me the other day that he liked me because of all his girl friends, I was the least crazy. But the truth is that I'm probably more crazy than all of his other girl friends combined. Ill never be just a normal girl. I'll always end up being the girl in the corner drinking, trying to feel safe.