Just Tonight.

A Single Moment.

People just keep fading away. The just drift off and soon they aren't calling you back, writing you back, soon you've lost all contact. I've never really understood why people just fade away after a while. I've never known a time where I didn't have a moment for a friend, but I suppose that's because I understand what that moment could mean to someone. A single moment is all it takes for someone to make a life-altering decision. A single moment.

Paper Aeroplane.

I love this.

Keith.

I watched the movie Keith today, it made me think of Ben. Everything makes me think of him. He haunts me in a way that sends tears to my eyes instantly. It's like the moment I think of him, I instantly get stabbed in the stomach and nothing else matters. Nothing seems important anymore. I've felt like this before and it scares me because the last time I felt like this nothing mattered. The things I did, the people I hurt, the pain I caused, all of it was because I just didn't care. My life has become too important to not care. If I stop caring now, i'll loose everything. It will all go away. Disapear. I cant loose everything all over again. It was so hard to go through what I went through last time, all the emotions I never understood. But now these deep, controlling emotions are back, and I'm at a loss about what to do. I could start taking something, but would that help? I could talk to someone, but most are gone now. Those that have stayed with me, well they don't deserve for me to put them through my pain again. Most are happy right now, excelling in their lives, which I find to be a beautiful and amazing thing. I guess the only thing that is left is hope. Hopefully I can be strong enough to control these emotions. I have to fight them and be stronger, I need to be strong. If only it was as easy to do as it is to type.

You're The One That I Want.

This is an awesome cover.

Big Jet Plane.

She smelled of daisies...

November 14th Vs. November 15th.

It amazes me what can happen in just a few hours. It was his birthday, ya know, on the 14th of November. He died early in the morning on the 15th of November. In the obituary it says that he died at the age of 21. He never knew, understood, lived, experienced the age of 21.

Little Lion Man.

Dog Days Are Over.

Love this song.

Can You Feel The Love Tonight?

I love this song.

Your Song.

This song is one of my favorites. It's beautiful and sweeps me off my feet every time.

Grandad And Sinatra.

I've always loved Sinatra, since forever basically. Tonight I was watching From Here To Eternity, a movie with Sinatra in it. While watching this movie it kept making me think about my grandad. He died when I was younger, I think I was 6. I have a few memories of him, but not nearly enough. For the most part I think I know him more through the stories my family has told me about him. As far as I can tell, he was someone I think I could have talked to for hours. I always feel like I missed out on some amazing conversations with him. I think that's why I've always liked Sinatra, especially his movies, because I think it makes me feel closer to my grandad. That may sound crazy, but that's okay. They looked a lot alike, especially as he got older.

Are You Lonesome Tonight?

I'm feeling Elvis tonight....he's always a lovely friend to have around on nights like these.

Turn Off Your Mind, Relax.

I'm really feeling the Beatles today, especially the song Tomorrow Never Knows. So check it out :)