Salvation, Where Art Thou?

I'm drowning. In your memory, in my sorrow, confusion, stillness, regret, and unanswered questions that haunt me. It's all becoming too much. It hurts. It isn't going away, only amplifying. Will visiting you be enough? Will I be able to get past this? Maybe it's not something I can do on my own. Maybe I need more. I'm not sure anymore. I only know that tonight was hard. All I do is think. I get imprisoned in my brain sometimes, and when that happens it goes dark. I need salvation, I need it before I ruin these things that are so good. My life is good. I'm in a good place, nothing can change this. I'll do whatever I need to, in order to protect where I am in my life right now.