Time To Focus.

I knew I was having a hard time staying focused on my goal, but i didn't realize how it was showing in my work. I really thought i was doing well. But in 2 out of 3 jobs i've been told i need to re-focus. So it's time to adjust. Before it was the goal of securing the job. But once i secured the job I lost sight of what's at stake. Now I need to focus on the fact that I only have 10 more weeks here in Vancouver before I go back to school. I need to finnish what i started. I will leave with that beautiful 50D in hand.

Accident That You Can't Keep Your Eyes Off Of.

You know how there are those accidents that are so bad, but you can't look away? Well the same thing goes for really bad T.V. shows and books. It's so bad but you can't stop because you need to know if it gets better or worse. Well I was surfing the channels last night and I found this one show that was just awful. It's called Alice, I Think. Check out this episode.

Ups and Down's of Freedom.

So i'm working on what kind of budget i'll have next semester when I go back to school and I finally get why everyone is always working. I figured they had their reasons, but I didn't realize it was so they could survive. Even if i worked 5 days a week, 8 hours a day, I would barely make enough. After doing the math, my eyes have been opened. There's no way i'll be able to pay for rent on my own with 6 classes next semester.

Sometimes It Can Be Harsh.

I keep saying that I'm handling 3 jobs just fine. But it's getting harder every day. At first I was able to get up for the 5 a.m. opening shift, but it's becoming harder as I continue this path. Hopefully I'll be able to find a new outlook because otherwise I might have to change something.

Don't Leave Me So Naked.

Why is it when you have someone read over your work, or view any work at all, it feels like your standing naked in front of them. I guess it's because you put a part of yourself into your work, if your serious about it. So in a way you are stripping a layer when they look at your work. I just wish it didn't make me so uneasy every time. I usually get the same people to look at my work and critique it. I figured that this might help my nerves because it's the same people. Nope. That was a wish that will never come true.

Swine Flu, How Dare You.

I unfortunately had to call in sick yesterday and today because i have fallen ill. Not with swine flu, but the common cold has taken over. The swine flu joke/question has gotten old though. I laughed the first 3 times.....the other 62 times i humored the other person. I think it's time for a new epidemic.

Sleepless In Vancouver Part 4.

Just let it take you away into a different life.

Lullaby by Natalie Merchant
Goodnight Moon by Jack Ingram
A Sorta Fairy Tale by Tori Amos
To Be Alone With You by Sufjan Stevens
Sweetness In Starlight by Matt Wertz
The Long Day Is Over by Norah Jones
Reasons To Love You by Meiko
This Year's Love by Katie Melua
White Lies by Paolo Nutini
Truly, Madly, Deeply by Ray LaMontagne

You Can Run, But You Can't Hide.

SO I'm in the exact same situation all over again. It must be something I'm doing. I must be my own worst enemy or something. How do i manage to bring this upon myself, not once, but twice! I was finally doing really well again too. I was adjusting, making new friends at work, smiling and feeling happy. But that wasn't meant to last i guess.

Sleepless in Vancouver Part 3.

For those who still can't drift off:

Hallelujah by Rufus Wainwright
Over The Rainbow by Shawn McDonald
Calling You by Blue October
This Year's Love by David Gray
Alright For Now by Tom Petty
Goodnight Hollywood Blvd. by Ryan Adams
Now Comes The Night by Rob Thomas
I found A Reason by Cat Power
The Great Escape by Patrick Watson

Pleasantly Surprising.

Kevin Costner and Modern West play some really great music together. This video is them playing one of my favourites live. Check it out:

Sleepless In Vancouver Part 2.

Here's another playlist to fall asleep to:

Strange & Beautiful by Aqualung
Come Away With Me by Norah Jones
Hold You In My Arms by Ray LaMontagne
Can I Stay by Ray LaMontagne
Breathe Me by Sia
Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron and Wine
Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy
Asleep by The Smiths

Sleepless in Vancouver Part 1.

If any of you out there are sleepless tonight, try out this playlist. Yes there may be a certain theme.....you'll figure it out pretty fast I'm guessing.

Black River by Amos Lee
Full Moon by The Black Ghosts
Eyes On Fire by Blue Foundation
If You Don't Wanna Love Me by James Morrison
Are You Lonesome Tonight by Norah Jones (Elvis cover)
Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd

Unexpected Bliss

Life can be painfully brutal sometimes. We struggle and go through hard ships as we grow. But along the way, with our many disappointments that we endure, we have to remember to enjoy the small things. The little things like a really great matinée. Have you ever noticed how going to see a matinée by yourself can be so calming? Or when your favorite song comes on the radio. Rock out to it and enjoy every word. Thats how you keep going when life gets fussy and complicated. You need to enjoy the small things in order to survive. If you don't, you might just fizzle away.

Goodbye My Almost Lover.

Goodbye My Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy.