The World Should Stop.

Whenever something bad happens in my life, I forget everything for a second. I drop what ever it is I'm doing and just reflect or accept or process what it is that has happened. Sometimes all I need is a minute, but sometimes it can take me longer. Sometimes I need a day and sometimes I need a lot longer. But the whole world just doesn't stop because something bad happened to you on that day. No, the world will keep going. The earth will keep spinning and people will keep living their lives as if nothing has changed. So what do you do if you can't stop the world, but for the moment your world is stopped? You hope that when you can finally start living again you wont have missed too much.

It Took Me By Surprise.

Just when I was happy and it was really going well, this emotion comes over me. It happens every time I let myself be happy. Maybe when I'm happy I get too reckless, or maybe I'm just not meant to be so happy. Maybe the best I can expect is middle of the road. No more sadness, but no greatness either. I want to say my peak of happiness is worth the pain that follows, but this cannot go on forever. Eventually I need the triggers to stop. Eventually I need to move forward. What if it never happens. What if I'm stuck in this constant cycle? This is no way to live.

Words.

Who has words at the right moment?

Charlotte Bronte (1816-1855)

This Ain't No Disco, It Ain't No Country Club Either, This Is LA!

Hey so I'm, just about ready to hit up LA for the weekend with my mom and sister. It'll be a great weekend, enjoy yours as well. Here's a great one to start it off right:

Relationships.

Every kind of relationship I have....needs work. I've fallen into a me pattern once again. I think about myself way too often these days. Yes, I'm working on myself and trying to find where I want to be in this world. But I've become obsessed with working on myself. Lately I've been worried about a lot of things in my own life, which is fine. But I've let it affect my relationships. My friends are being neglected and that's awful. People depend on me and I've been letting them down. But no more. I will be less focused on myself and more on what's important. I try and be as observant as possible, but I feel like because I'm trying to see everything, I'm missing the big picture all together. Sure I notice all the details everyone else doesn't, but that doesn't mean anything if I'm not seeing what everyone else is.