Three Jobs.

Job # 1 (a.k.a. the best) is at the Aquarium here in Vancouver. I am a photographer. It's awesome.
Job # 2 is at Starbucks as a Barista. It's good money, but man sometimes it can be super stressful. I'm working at a store that is under staffed and going through a lot of changes.
Job # 3 is at White Spot as a hostess.
I've managed to work these three jobs together for about 4 weeks now. Hopefully i can keep it up.

Where The Wild Things Are.

Ahhh I am so excited for this to come out!!! I used to love this book as a kid. Check it out:

A Thousand Ideas At Once.

So since moving to Vancouver, I've been trying to figure out the best way to spend my time. What should i do? My mind has gone from a cooking class, bar-tending class, photo school, working full time, and other ideas in between. I just cant seem to make up my mind. I have so many things i want to do and just not enough resources to do it all. i have this compelling feeling that all these options will disappear once i finnish school. Which is so wrong because i'll only be 22 when i finnish college. I'm not sure why this impending doom feeling is hovering over me. I don't like it all though. Not only do i feel like my options are closing in on me, i also feel overwhelmed and discouraged. Everyday i get this new idea and i'll be really excited about it. But it always seems that by the end of the day or the week i'll have thought about it, shared it with someone, realized what i'd have to give up or the unrealistic side of it, and then i'll discard and be bummed about it not working out. I can't seem to commit to anything anymore. I'm not sure why i've become so flakey all of a sudden, but it's not like me and I'm not really comfortable with it.

500 Days Of Summer

Man i love this movie. I think it's because i can relate to it. I think we've all thought maybe this person is the one...and then they're not. I like this movie because there isn't a happily ever after. I like it because it shows a person going through something normal that can completely destroy your life and then it shows him overcome it. Plus i love Zooey Deschanel and Joseph Gordon-Levitt. Zooey Deschanel is in a band called She and Him. You should check it out. Her voice is awesome!

Here's the trailer for 500 Days Of Summer to check out:

When Will It Stop?

I can run, i can hide, but eventually it always comes back. This feeling of sadness overwhelms me. Even moving away from all things toxic can't make it go away. If anything i think the sadness has become worse. At least before i had some great friends to depend on, here there's no one i can talk to about this. I really thought i had finally escaped this feeling. This fear and sadness was gone for almost a month. It was a great month. But now reality is kicking in. I ran away from something i can't run away from. And by running away i some how made it worse. How does that work? I'm lost. If i stay here I'm afraid the hole inside me will grow. But if i leave I'm giving up. I've only been here a month and a half. How sad would that be to give up so soon? I've already let myself down a lot this past while, can i add another thing to the list? No, I really don't think i can. But come January i'll be back in Orange County.

The Art Museum.

I recently visited the Art Museum in Vancouver. It was beautiful. The Gallery is in the center of downtown and has a beautiful collection. Part of the collection was by Jack Shadbolt. I've fallen in love with his work. My favorite piece by him in the museums collection is called India Suite. I couldn't find a picture of it, but i did find a documentary that follows Shadbolt over a 9-month period. Check it out (this is part 1 of 3):

Retro Cartoons.

Remember when you used to wake up to the old school cartoons? They were so much better than the cartoons kids watch today.

List of Cartoons that Rock:

Smurfs
Josie and the Pussycats
Pink Panther
Reboot
Casper the Friendly Ghost
Yogi Bear
The Flintstones
The Jetsons
Rocky and Bullwinkle
Inspector Gadget
All Looney Tunes Cartoons
Pinky and the Brain
Noveltoons
All Cartoons by Walt Disney

Here's a clip to get a taste of the old school greatness:

I Wonder.

Do you ever just wonder, what's the point? People are always working towards something. But when you get somewhere, what if there's no one there with you to enjoy it? Will it be great if your alone? The more i experience, the more i want to share those experiences. There's so much i wanna see and do. But every time i do one of those things, i wish there was someone to share it with me. Is it just me? Am i just dependent on other people? Or is it a human need to have someone along for the ride?

10 Things I Love About Myself.

1. The kinks and waves my hair has when i let it dry on it's own.
2. At the end of the day, being short has it's advantages.
3. My nails.
4. My hands.
5. The way my mind works. How i can talk in circle's but somehow end up making sense.
6. My nose.
7. My eyes.
8. My legs.
9. My sense of humor.
10. My eyebrows.

Oh Job, Do you exist?

So I am having the HARDEST time finding a job. It's not a lack of experience either. It's awful. I've never had this much trouble finding a job before. I don't agree with this one bit. I've literally handed out 60 resumes by now, if not more. How sad is that?

You Have to Deal.

How To Deal. This is another movie on my list. It's allowed on the list because the characters go through stuff that again we can relate to. But also, each character ends up okay despite the mess, confusion, and disaster that is life. I love the beginning quote because i can totally agree with it.

"Sometimes life is so perfect, isn't it? It has to be to make up for all the hard stuff it throws your way. You have to learn how to walk, you have to learn how to talk, you have to wear that totally ridiculous hat that your grandma bought for you, and you have no say in the matter. And when you're a little older, even though you get to choose your hats, you don't get to choose what they put in those meatballs in the cafeteria, or when to fall in love...things happen and you just have to deal..."

- Mandy Moore as Halley Martin in How to Deal.

When I Met You.

Okay it's official, i LOVE Scarlett Jo. Check out her new single with Pete Yorn.

Lowpoint Lowpoint!

Okay The Holiday, such a great movie! It's right up there with The Family Stone, and Elizabethtown. I think it's because when each movie starts out, the main characters are in a lowpoint of their lives. So on the one hand it makes you realize that your not the only depressed person out there with crap raining on your life. AN on the other, by the end of the movie the main character usually finds his/her way out out of the rain and into some kind of working solution, or they at least find the "Silver Lining". So when ever my life hits a lowpoint, i just turn one of these babies on and it works like a charm. At least until i start to think about everything once again, but it's a nice escape anyway.

This quote from The Holiday is one that i love. Why? Because i completely agree and can relate to it all too well.

Iris: I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms.