The Journey of a Modern Nomad: July 2012

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Happy.

I love you. I hate you. I miss you. I want you. I want you to be happy. I hope you're happy.......

Friday, July 27, 2012

I miss you. I miss you so much. I miss feeling safe and I miss knowing someone understands me. Right now I feel lost. Right now I feel sad. Right now I feel empty. I wish I just needed companionship. That would be so much easier. But that's not enough. I need you. You're the only one that fills this void. Other guys don't know how to make the void go away. I know everything got really complicated and I know that it's all just gotten out of hand. I sort of understand why you backed off. But I need you back in my life. If I had thought for even a second that your presence would be in jeopardy, I would have never let things get this way. I need you in my life and I need to know you'll be here. I just need you back. Please. Come back.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

The Big Bang.

I'm obsessed with this song right now. Kevin Zegers is in this video.....so hot.

Friday, July 20, 2012

You Can't Always Get What You Want.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

The Moment Of Impact.

The moment of impact. The moment of impact proves potential for change. Has ripples effects far beyond what we can predict. Sending some particles crashing together. Making them closer than before. While sending others spinning off into great ventures. Landing where you never thought you'd find them. That's the thing about moments like these. You can't, no matter how hard you try, control how it's gonna affect you. You just gotta let the colliding part go where they may. And wait. For the next collision. - From the movie The Vow. <3

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Fly Or Die.

I couldn't find an actual music video so I'm posting this one....such a good song.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

You're gone.

I miss you. I miss being able to talk to you. I really need to talk to you right now. Everything is just so complicated and out of hand. I'm fighting back urges, I'm stressing out. Mostly I'm trying so hard to just not fuck up right now. I need you. I wish you were here. I wish more than anything that you could be here to believe in me. But you're gone and without you, I'm just not sure how long I can keep this up. Some days, like today, it's just so hard.

The List.

The mission: to complete all 101 things in 1001 days.
Start date: 3/18/12
End date: 12/14/14

~~Line = Done!!!~~
Bold = Working on it currently.

1. I will loose 50 lbs.
2. I will not lie to myself.
3. Post a blog as much as possible to keep you all posted on my progress if nothing else.
4. Stop feeling guilty about people caring about me. They are allowed to.
5. Get lost often.....you have to keep life interesting.
6. Do something for someone else as much as possible. I'm pretty well off compared to most and doing something for someone can be so simple. The smallest things can mean the world to some people.
7. Buy books to inspire me and enhance of knowledge about life and love.
8. Fall in love with something or someone.
9. Carry a book of quotes and write one on a piece of paper and place it on every bulletin board I see.
10. ~~Get an internship at either a photo studio or a newspaper/magazine. I need to start focusing and get going if I want to end up somewhere good in the photography industry.~~
11. Go on a road trip which isn’t planned for a week.
12. Go on a planned road trip.
13. Dance in the moonlight to Dancing in the Moonlight.
14. Dance in the rain.
15. Put a photo show together.
16. Send a message in a bottle.
17. Find the perfect tree. By which I mean, find the tree that puts all other tree’s to shame. There’s a tree out there that would amaze anyone whose looking for it. I will find that perfect tree.
18. Plant a tree in honor of someone great.
19. Stay up for 24 hours talking to someone I just met.
20. Inspire someone.
21. Write my initials on all my $5 bills.
22. Become pen pals with someone awesome.
23. Borrow a book from the public library more and more often.
24. Watch all the Godfather movies. For years now I’ve been saying that I would watch them. (2 out of 3 complete)
25. Watch 25 never-seen-by-me movies from top 250 imdb movie list.
26. Learn the harmonica. I've started but I can only play the blues...by learn I mean i want to be able to rock out on the thing, not just get by.
27. Learn more about my heritage. My mom went on a search to find her birth mom and found a huge family in the process. Turns out she’s Chippewa and therefore so am I. I'm going to focus on learning what that means. I want to understand more about what my family members believe.
28. Try and visit as many art galleries and museums as possible. Seeing what other people have done is amazing.
29. Expand my vocabulary and give 100,000 grains of rice with http://www.freerice.com/.
30. Make 25 of my own recipes.
31. Make a soundtrack to my life.
32. Try Hot Yoga.
33. Put change in other peoples parking meters when their meter is expired but no one is in sight.
34. Learn how to play poker properly.
35. Watch An Inconvenient Truth.
36. Send a postcard to Post Secret.
37. Join Postcrossing and send 50 post cards.
38. Go to an Opera.
39. Ride a Mechanical Bull.
40. Have someone read my palm.
41. Sell something on Etsy.
42. Buy a fisheye lens.
43. Buy a 70-200 lens.
44. Learn how to whistle properly.
45. Read a newspaper from the day I was born.
46. Compile a personal top 25 movie list.
47. Recount 3 dreams through an art project.
48. Photograph a scar and write about it.
49. Watch Samson and Delilah.
50. Learn to write my name in Egyptian hieroglyphics.
51. Sleep under the stars one night, under the open sky.
52. Be able to identify at least 5 constellations.
53. Go to the TCM festival.
54. Be in a relationship that I am fully committed to. I will open up and be completely honest and give it everything I have.
55. Re-learn how to play the guitar.
56. Read Anna Karenina.
57. Get another tattoo.....possibly 2 more.
58. Photograph a lightning storm.
59. Finally go on the europe trip my sister and I planned a few years back.
60. See the Northern Lights.
61. Graduate from Brooks Institute.
62. ~~Move to Los Angeles.~~
63. Buy a 5D Mark ll
64. Redo my website and make it professional.
65. Create a self portrait that embodies who I am at this point in my life.
66. Visit New Orleans for Mardi Gras.
67. Write a short story.
68. Submit short story to a publication.
69. Hit the bullseye on a dart board.
70. Take a class by Richard Simmons.
71. Read The Perks Of Being A Wallflower.
72. Paint something beautiful.
73. Go horseback riding on the beach.
74. Try to learn French again.
75. Go to Nashville.
76. Visit Krista and meet her wonderful daughter.
77. Visit my parents in Malaysia.
78. ~~Take the train.~~
79. Go to the Los Angeles Zoo.
80. See all of the shows at the LA Observatory. (2 out 4 complete)
81. Be in 4 places at once. (4 corners of the US?)
82. Visit Hearst Castle.
83. Either create a studio or move into one.
84. Go to a roller derby event.
85. Go to Sprinkles Cupcakes.
86. Go to a taping of Ellen DeGeneres.
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The Journey of a Modern Nomad