A Cancer Of Sorts.

There's a cancer of sorts that has crawled into my head. It seems to spread slowly, but it hits me out of nowhere. One minute I'm driving, then next thing I know, all I wanna do is cry. This week,I thought, might be better. But it wasn't. He showed me how to love life and every time I appreciate something, all I wanna do is text him, but I can't because his mom cancelled his phone service. I know this because I've been calling his voicemail. I know that sounds like a horrible thing to do, but I just wanted to talk to him, ya know? But now I don't even have a recording of him. Slowly everyones letting him go. How do they do that? How do you let someone go?