Thought Today.

At the peak of happiness and joy there is great sorrow and pain. Maybe it's easier to think about sad things when your happy, because when your already sad....thinking about everything else might just be too much.

Roots.

Today I was told I need to have roots. I need to ground myself. Well I'm not too sure how to do that, or even where I should root myself. I don't really have anywhere that I would like to be for a long time. I like moving a lot. I love meeting people and I love living in different places. You get to experience different vibes and different cultures and different ways of life. So until I get that feeling, or until I am forced to root myself, I will continue to move forward. Next is Santa Barbara and then who knows? Possibly Kentucky, or maybe New York. But where ever I go, It probably wont be in California. I love California very much. My experience here has been amazing, but I'll be in Santa Barbara for three years and by then I'll need a new vibe. I'll need new surroundings. It's how I've always lived, so why stop now?

P.s. 11:11...make a wish!

Speech Is No Longer A Concern.

I did it. As of today I am officially free of speech class. I finally passed. I can finally breath again. It's been a constant weight on my chest. But now, the weight is gone. Such a relief!

Freedom From Saddleback.

It's official ladies and gentlemen. I am free. No longer will I be a students at Saddleback. I am officially done and am moving forward. On to a new chapter of my life. Soon I will also be saying goodbye to Orange County and will be moving to Santa Barbara. By the end of August I will be closing this chapter of my life. It's sad in some ways, but I know it's the right decision for me. It was nice to come back to Orange County, but being back has only made me realize that it's time to move forward. I have made friendships that will hopefully last a lifetime, but now it's time for a new adventure. SB here I come!

You Can't Deny The Awesomeness.

I know, people are always talking about how Ke$ha is this and that. Most people have been hating on her lately. But I don't care. All I know is that her music...is awesome. Yes, her video's are strange and she parties a lot...but I'm okay with that. I love listening to her music. It's fun and it makes me want to dance.

Check her latest video out. You'll love the beat.

The Little Things Save You.

Even when things really suck, you have to remember to still enjoy the small things. For example I'm having a horrid weekend so far. But I found out today that golf carts can get tickets, which pretty much made my day. It's just one of those things that you wouldn't think about, but yes, that makes sense. I also finally made it into the circle. I was finally cool enough to have an adventure with someone. I've been waiting for the cool sign and it was finally made. Most people wouldn't even care about this, but it's a personal accomplishment of mine. So even though I had a crappy day, with awful customers at work, I still enjoyed the small things. Oh, plus I've been listening to the Scarlet Johanson and Pete Yorn album; The break up. It's fantastic. It's one of those albums that you have to listen to all at once. It's amazing.

People Need To Realize That Everyone Is Equal.

Lately I've been noticing that people are being super judgmental lately. People just need to stop and re-evaluate. Just because one person believes something you don't, it doesn't make them any less amazing. Everyone has different views and everyone is different. If everyone was the same life would be boring. So get off you high horses and just accept people for who they are. Life would be so much easier if people were more accepting.

Sometimes Pooh Bear Says It Best.

“Sometimes, if you stand on the bottom rail of a bridge and lean over to watch the river slipping slowly away beneath you, you will suddenly know everything there is to be known.”
-Winnie the Pooh

Haunting Voice.

So I'm working on my artist statement right now. I usually put music on in the background to muffle out other noises so I can really focus. While I was typing Brittany Murphy came on, I had my iTunes on shuffle. I've always thought she had an amazing voice, but it really is truly haunting. Its like Patsy Cline in the way that you can truly hear how she's feeling while she's singing. It's very intense. Check out this clip:

History Is Hurting Me.

I have this online history class that I have to take in order to transfer in the fall, so i have to pass. It's not hard but man is it a time eating pain in the ass. It just takes so long to get through, it's hard to focus on it.

Today's Facebook Status

My thoughts race a mile a minute, my views change every mile, and my words get lost every second.

Hollywood.

So my sister and I hit up Hollywood and a few other places around LA today. It was awesome! I love getting out of Orange County. If I don't explore other places I get anxious. After this adventure though, I've re-evaluated my priorities. It was pay off my credit card and then a car, but now the car is first. Sharing a car with morgan is becoming too challenging and I like my freedom, which is severely threatened when I don't have a car. It's very upsetting.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

So today I decided to put my ipod on shuffle and it did me proud. An Aretha Franklin song came on and it just rocked my world. I forgot just how great her songs are. But the bizarre thing is that I used to hate the song Say A Little Prayer For Me, possibly because of the relation to My Best Friends Wedding. But for some reason today it especially rocked my world. So here it is.



I also must include this performance of Day Dreaming. Its great.



I couldn't post something about Aretha and not post R-E-S-P-E-C-T. So here its is.

P.s. its epic.

Loving My Breaks A Little Too Much.

So lately I've began to notice just how I enjoy going on my half at work. It's a combination of things that can make it great. First there's the obvious factor, I get to stop working for a bit. Especially since I'm at the point where I remember why I quit this job so many times. But when you add in a cigarette and a country band playing in the marine room, its amazing. It's just so calming for some reason. Or if the bands off that day a nice sunset does the trick too. But either way I work in a super nice place so it's nice to enjoy it on my half.

P.s. 9 months till 21!!!